lets
break
th rules
& make our
own. *

so we're all in year 11 now, helllooo. this is year 9 bullshit.

dramas'dramas'dramas'dramas'dramas'dramas'

- sillly little things. get overrrr it. 

you know tht saying, "build a bridge & get over it."

http://mariahhhhx.blogspot.com/

actually quite a happy girl atmo. :D yes, this is bcos of a special someone hehe. mmm heard what i've been wanting to hear for ages! & i've heard it, and it makes me feel great. maybe that night, i shouldnt have stuffed things up, but heyyy, i didn't know. anyways, when we have this talk, see how things go. they should go good, and hear what you have to say in person. i can't wait to be honest.

Th funny thing is, nobody really knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken and we wouldn't even know it.

I'M FUCKING LONELY OK. 

Ok, so i told you. I told you ok? & now you haven't talked to me since. I asked you if you were my bestfriend, you said yes. I tell you, and you just walk away. It upsets me because it took me alot of gut to tell you! Alot. & i was afraid to tell you because i knew this would happen. & now i'm not sure if you're still my so called "bestfriend" .. I don't know if i've lost you. Now you know why i can't tell you much because you think i've changed. Well i haven't changed at all. I just want you to accept th fact that i'm happy. But you can't & that's what upsets me th most. I'm happy, you should be happy for me. :'( i'm crying while i write this, this feeling sucks. I'm sorry, but i can't go back and change it. Now you know why it took me awhile to tell you.

f**k buddies; hahahahahaha k. 
i don't think you know ya'self tbh, LOL.

31st Jan - 1st Feb;

so where to start.. got back from lyndon's batch today! had th best time ;D it's somewhere past levin near a beach, hah dno exactly where. so lyndon, esther, kitty, trei & i went.. partying it up at th back of th seat on th way hahah.. got there felt like it was jersey shore, like actually LOL. & im "apparently SHNOOKIE".  got dibs on th biggest room hahah; yayyah!! ;) then about an hour later jordan, devan, bradley, whitney & her bf turn up! ahhh what can i say. was amazing. had lots & lots of fun. had a bonfire that night, got drunk on th beach hah. mmm, everyone goofing round, being drunks & super loud may i say hahah. & like started running round in m'undies & bra hahahaahah wow. definitely a night to remember. had alot of fun, must do that again. 

hehe.

oh my fucking god. bitch you fucking annoy me. fuck you ok. you piss me off.
what; just bcos you didnt get your way you try fuck up everything for me!!

.. this is abit over exhadurating.. but i'm just fucking mad!

TODAY I AM HAPPY BECAUSE I 

DON'T HAVE ANY REASON NOT TO BE :)

going out to lyndons batch today! yayyah. can't wait X

"Now I don't usually do this b

ut I ain't myself tonight i

 wanna drink a lil' mo, 

Forget it all, a

nd dance till I'm dead on th floor."

HAS ANYONE CHECKED THIS OUT;

http://mariahhhhx.blogspot.com/

- take a look. even follow it mayb.

it’s strange having moments in life when you

realize how your life could be, and then havi

ng to return to how it really is.  and i wonder 

if that’s just how life will always be.. the cons

tant back and forth between being entirely a

nd completely satisfied and always wanting m

ore.  just wanting and wanting..

school's a weeek away! ;( omg. not really looking forward to it. got my senior blouse thingy today & th tie; yayyah ;) & apparently i look a tad older hah, woohoo. this year; buck up my ideas! head down at school - number one priority, get a job, get my license.. before th age goes up ;D mmm, exams this year.. eugh! th least bit excited about them. meet new people ;P parrrty, whatever. & yeaahh.. see what happens. loose friends, make friends, meet a guy, fall in love, do something you've never done before, make mistakes, learn from them,  tears & pain, laughter & smiles, make stupid decisions.. most of th things a teenager goes through, right.

2011; be good to me.

Chur.

I'LL DO WHAT I WANT! STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO, DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME, JUST WORRY ABOUT YA'SELF; THANKS!

i love every single

thing about you. yo

u make me smile lot

s & lots. & you're 

probably th best th

ing i ever had :')

JERSEY FUCKING SHORE! ♥

so now th sun decides to come out.

dear you. ;)

this Saturday should be good! ;D cant wait to see you; i've missed you loads. can't wait to read my letter too ;P

I WISH I HADN'T TOLD YOU.

take a look. ;)

http://mariahhhhx.blogspot.com/

me&you

tell me something
i don't know.

2011; surprise me. ♥

i wish i had th guts to sing out loud, 

in front of a whole audience.

" t h i n g s   

a r e   

b e t t e r   

l e f t ,  

u n s a i d "

i'm okay, i'm fine.. i think.

just; give me more time.

x