it sucks, you know. when everything is going fine then, it all crashes again. and th worst part is, you really don't want to try and put it all back together again, but you have to. ; ♥

you got me doin' crazy things that I never thought i'd never do.

has started doing her running ;D honestly can't wait til either th school gym is up & running or start a gym outside of school. seriously needa keep fit. think i'm packing on th weight haha. oh & netball starts up next term. excited as! get back into it. ♥

falling.. falling.. falling.. falling. ♥

why am i so bimmin' jealous for? i think i'm just being silly. i really need to cut it out like serious. i feel like an idot. idk; i guess it's just th shit that's been happeneing in th last couple of days i guess. oh well i hope everything goes well this weekend eh.

what th heck happened? i never see you

anymore. you're like this whole different

person. you're like a stranger to me. funny,
me & you were so tight, then boom, next

thing you know we're not even talking

anymore. not a text, nothing. & you say

i've changed? huhhh wow. i think it was

just you all along. you're just too cool

for everyone now aren't you? last couple

of days made me realize so much. you were

just pretty much tying me down. ohwell.

shit happens ae. just don't blame me. bcos this is all because of you. i'm not just sayin' that.

everything happens for a reason.

I feel like I annoy everyone everyday, sometimes I even annoy myself. I worry too much that i upset people around me, even when I haven't done anything wrong. I guess i'm insecure? Paranoid? I don't know what it is but I need you to tell me that everything's gonna be okay.. :( ♥

i don't know how or what i feel anymore. i'm

just so damn' confused.

& i always wonder why i never have photos for my blogger. cos i use like, 4-5 on 1 blimmin' post haha ;D & no wonder why i spend so much time looking for pictures cos i'm using all of them up hahaha. whoopsy. i absoloutley love blogging :) i espesh love it when people say they like my blog & compliment it; thankyou. ♥

We used to talk for hours on end about everyone & everything. We would laugh untill we couldn't breathe. We were one in th same. we cared for eachother like sisters, we were like family. we used to hang out every single day. I would call you when i needed you & you'd do the same. You would tell me when something was wrong & i was there for you. I trusted you with everything. You were my bestfriend. & i didn't even know what happened to us? I guess things changed, well i changed, & you didn't like it. I wasn't that kid anymore. We started to grow apart. i start to miss you every single day & wish we could go back to th old days.

but i don't know if that'll ever happen again. 

I'M SORRY, SOMETIMES I GET JEALOUS THINKING THAT SOMEONE ELSE COULD MAKE YOU HAPPIER THEN I COULD. I GUESS IT'S MY INSECURITIES  ACTING UP. BECOS I KNOW I'M NOT TH PRETTIEST, SMARTEST OR MOST FUN & EXCITING. BUT I DO KNOW THAT NO MATTER HOW HARD & LONG YOU LOOK; YOU'LL NEVER FIND SOMEBODY WHO LIKES

YOU AS MUCH AS I LIKE YOU. ♥

i love her ♥.

OH GUYS; GUESS WHAT? GHD'S FIXED :D woohoo. no more blimmin' crappy remmignton.

it is 7:58am ;D & i wanna be at

school early for th first time in ages!

you wanna know why i hung out with older people? why i like it so much better?  becos they never have drama. they never bitched or never got angry over immature shit. they'd just laugh about it instead of getting all worked up. i liked how hanging with them, made me act more my age. & to be perfectly honest you need some growing up yourself. you need to start acting your age & stop being so immature.

mayb i do, mayb i dont. i don't even know. all i know is i'm pretty damn close! ♥

i ♥ my girls alot.

faarr out; what a night! missioning it like every blimmn' where. friday, biking for 5 hours til 12 in th morning with katherine haha ;D saturday; me, kitty & katherine getting otp & ready for a party.. get down there & everyone's getting kicked out. so crashed at th bf's hehe :D not a bad weeked, not bad.

soo.. pretty much heard something that blimmn' blew my mind hahaha. wow; i'm so shocked lol. i guess i thought wrong boutcha.

you dirty girl.

it's sunny today guys :D

i admit, i really miss how things used to be. 

but i can also admit, that i've accepted 

th fact that things have changed. ♥

ohai; i just want to tell you all how much i love my wasian. she is the coolest ever and i'm gunna have the best weekend ever with her!
i love her soo much!

 xoxo

has spent most of afterschool looking through websites for pictures. omg; i need some sleep, goddaaam haha. my back is aching, far out. 

also is pretty damn upset cos i won't be seeing th bf til' next week! ohwell; i promised next week will be our week :) & hope you get better soon babe. ♥ 

take me heeere;

We used to have a tight bond. It was great, good times and long-lasting memories (: BUT now we aren’t even trying to be friends, there is still a tensity mood between us. We attempt to have the friendship we used to have but it seems not to be working. We both know the reason why. It’s because you’ve found some one to fill in my spot. I can accept it, because i messed things up before. I don’t know what else to do.  I can only write about it because I’ve realized I have no one else to talk to like I used to be able to. I really want a fresh start and if I take the risk of doing so I may just find myself even more upset. No one else under stands me like my best friend could. & I’m scared that I will never be able to find a friend because I truly believe we were meant to be the best friends. It just feels like you don’t even know.

i hope what you said is
true ;D  cos' that would
be the best thing. ♥

remember; i was there for you through thick & thin. & you let me go, just like that. kinda shows how much i meant to you. & i know for a fact that, when he's gone, you're going to wish i was there for you, when in reality; i won't be, bcos you chucked me to th side. so thankyou for making me realize that it was just a dumb act. ♥

my daily routine afterschool;

a get home, chuck my shit in my room

jump on th computer & start blogging

away. always have my four tabs open ;)

facebook'blogger'my photo website & music!
like actually. if you were here right

now you'd see exactly what you read ;D

oh & now it's time to make me a massive

feed! cos i'm god damn hungry. you'll prob

see an new post in about.. 10 minutes tops

haha. i have no life lol. one of th reasons

why i'm gnna get mooore involved. i have too

much spare time ;p

is pretty darn

keen to get back into her sports! dunno why i stopped in the first place hehe ;D

i'm not in love.

i'm not in love.

i'm not in love,

yet.

miley cyrus; my idol. ♥  

I could go anywhere with you & i'd probably still be happy  :)

there comes a point in

your life when you realize

who matters, who never

did, who won't anymore

and who always will. so

don't worry about people,

from your past, there's a

reason why they didn't

make it to your future. ♥

aahh; -    just tell

 me what's frickin'

wrong. you can't

keep it in forevr.

so i  just suggest

you tell me! >:(.

when i'm with you,

the -              only 

place -      i wanna 

be is     - closer. ♥

just promise me baby, you'll be here through it all. ♪

today was actually pretty good ;D 
& finally th sun is out!! 
tonight i am staying with th girls.
should be pretty cool. oh btw;
 my weekend was freckin' cool.
had lotsa fun :)

LOOOOOOOOK;

http://iwishiwishh.blogspot.com/ 

 

 NEW BLOG^^; well actually, my "wish list" but yes, new blog. take a looksy & follow hehe. ♥

i know i said some stuff lastnight, and i don't know if i meant it. & now i'm thinkin' to myself; i shoulda kept my damn mouth shut. oh no :( ♥

Sick of crying, tired of trying, yeah i'm smiling, but inside i'm dying. ♥

         2 y o u n g 2 ca r  e.         

i'm so bored ): whenevs i'm bored i just blog blog blog; it's blimmin' crazy! so i'm waiting for a phone call.. to plan my night ;D i have an idea of what we're doing, & i hope it'll be a lot of fun. i haven't been out in awhile which sucks. butt tonight; hopefully good! soo hurry up & caaall me. right now.

let's make the most of it.

      i'm sorry if i'm not her, or anything like her, i really am.