hates being second best, it hurts.. so much. 

it was a first, and i promise it's going to be a last. i'm disgusted in what happened, honestly.

i honestly cannot handle this. guess i deserve it huh?
yep, i sure as hell do.

we don't know what th future holds. but i promise you, i'll try & earn it back. & i'll make sure it won't happen. i'll prove you wrong babe. forever is all i'm askin. ♥

regrets - shouldn't have them but i regret what i  done. especially if it's going to ruin well  .. us.

so yeah, just gonna put it out there now.. lastnight just too too drunk! dunno what i was thinking. all th tears & shit.. just made a fool of myself, th stuff i've been hearing. wow; i'm a blimmin suk! i'm pretty disappointed in myself aswell as th boys are too. & i'm honestly really sorry. i was upset about a lot of things, & alcohol just made it worst. but everyone makes mistakes when they're drunk, & i hope this'll be th first & last, honestly. i am so overly embarrassed. wish i could take all of it back. just have to learn from my mistakes. again, so sorry.

one simple thing, but you can't even do that? you say you'll try show me you care, i'm still not seeing it? so hard to get through to you. i'm really getting fed up with this. i don't really know what to do anymore. to you it mayb be th tiniest thing, but to me, no. you should know what i'm like. i can't help it. i've told you so much times, obviously you don't seem to understand? i honestly don't believe you anymore. & i'm honestly fed up.. sorry; i just can't take it any longer :( -              but i'll always still love you          

just a tad excited for tonight. ;)

  i kinda miss you to..   

indigo, you're so amazaing! ;D i love you tonnes, & never ever wanna loose you. you're th best, one of my bestest friends i could ever ask for! hehe. always been there for me, and you know i'll always be there for you. through everything. i trust you with pree' much everything hehe :) & i'm glad you can tell me anything & everything too. i love you heaps babe. ♥

you are such a teaser. ;)

so yeah, might be starting up at th YMCA gym soon ;D WICKED!

so yeah, my life is amazin' atmo.

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we're so much better then that. just let them bitch & hate, don't  make them think it bothers us. just keep our heads held high. they're honestly nothing, & we shouldn't even care. i don't, don't let it bother you. lets just live our life th way we want & do what we want. don't worry about them, we honestly do not need bitchy girls in our life. they need to grow up! :) seriously over it, you should be too.

words can't even 

describe this feeling, honestly. ♥

 

i have a dirty little secret, but don't we all? ;)

honestly, such a good blimmin' weekend. haven't had that much fun in awhile to be honest ;p 4-days without any school, ahh so good! should be like that more often ahah. partyin & partyin, then chillin cos i've just been so tired hah, went & saw my amazing bestfriend lastnight, & stayed with her! sorry i haven't really been with you much this weekend, but seems like you had fun, so that's good :) pretty much been with th boys for th whoole weekend aha, & yh was quite fun! i'm kinda, actually looking forward to this weekend, gonna be so much fun. i betcha ;) wooh. it'll go so quick seeing as we're halfway through th week already. reaaally wanna go shopping! hmm, well i've been pretty good. but funs over, back to school, studying, filling out my application forms for these 2 jobs, study for my learners! really need to get it before th age goes up!! but this weekend, aahh; cant wait! ♥

              illegal sex in illegal places.             

ONLY YOU CAN GIVE ME THAT FEELING. ♥

sorry i'm not anything like her, or have known you as long as her or been friends with you as long as she has. but truth is, i'm not th one that gets all bitched up over one little thing you do/say. i honestly thought i was your number one. i thought i had someone. for a second there you had me. guess not, you even said so yourself.. i'm not gonna act like it bothers me even though it sure as hell does. i honestly wish you hadn't said that ;(

some space between me & you sounds like a good idea..

not much bloggin' been coming from me latley, tbh; not much time on my hands orr.. i just can't be f*cked haha. well it's th long weekend plusss tuesday off which is well.. pretty cool ;) been out th last two nights, much fun haha. haven't been out in so long, so yes was very good. i've been good, great  infact. i have th flu atmo ;( i was  looking forward to going out tonight.. but no, night in tonight i'm thinking. so tonight pretty much facebook, this, formspring.. my night sorted aha :)

                                  you're my mr. perfect. ♥                      

everyone was innocent, once apon a time.

girls are sensitive, they over think every little thing and they care way more then they should, but that's what makes their love so strong :)

plans 4 tday;

shower, get ready, 2:30 - watch game, after game - go to bf's, sort out what's happening tonight. get my shit together, have my drinks

already for tonight! so yes, just need to plan plan plan, aahhh; hurryyy.

NEVER, & I MEAN NEVER..

work out on th day before your game. it sucks.

i blimmin' did it, i ran th cross-country haha. i didn't think i would, but i did & i'm pretty darn proud aha. non-stop too ;) weehoo! ♥

got told th most f*cked up thing today haha; & now i'm wondering if it might just be true. i'm tryna tell myself it's not true, but now i'm starting to see it, & i'm hoping it's not haha. i'm mind f*cked, lol.



phone is competley flat & charger is fully stuffed, doesn't charge my phone so guess i'm gonn have to use my old old phone; $40 just for this charger, f*ck aha no good. hopefully can grab it tmro. so i'm now using 0277131997. :) tayla? you say i'm coming with you.. where to?! i'm a tad excited haha. i'm dying t'know, tell me!

i guess some things are better left un-said; but idk; i had to tell you, i didn't wanna lie. & i'm sorry. & i hate that i made you think i was anything like her.. i fucked up, i guess i forgot about th consequences; i'm so sorry, it'll  never happen again.

no no no; i'm a very lucky girl, honestly so, so happy.

been drivng a few times this month & starting to get easier & easier ;D  have to learn th road code so i can go get me learners before th age goes up.. ohhhh mum has already found me a car, not bad for a first car actually. better then other cars i've seen teens drive to school ahaha ;D but yes, caarr!! woohhh. also have to find a job, not that easy nowadays hah; need some money..

 you give me th kind of feelings people write novels about. hehehe. ♥

NOT TOO-BAD

W-END ;D

hahaha; i think it's quite funny tbh, i really hope it does happen lol. i bet a million cha-ching it will sometime soon ;)

"i understand that other girls talk behind my back, but th thing is, i'm real, and that's what they lack."

so yeah, went to th 80% makeup sale lastnight in town, was exciting ;D

i hate that i let you down & i feel so bad about it.

three months

today. can't wait til'

tonight. ;p ♥

training at 530; need some time to kill aha. plans for th weekends? i have no idea, movies friday i think, theennn game on saturday at 10, rest of th day.. town maybe for this 80% off shooping thaaanng, exciting! night? nooo idea, hopefully go out :)

it's probably going to be th best night of your life, & it sucks because i'm not going to be there when we both wish i was ): ♥

FIT AS FUCK..

it's so so sexy.

      600th post ;D ♥      

you need to keep your hands to

yourself lovely. you may be single, but our boys aren't. you're seriously asking for a hiding; honestly aha. but doesn't seem like you

care, so you keep doin' what you're doin'.

i've noticed that i'm getting more 

tireder every single day. feel like i don't really have much times on my hand as much as i used to. guess i could blame this new routine i have haha. so so tired & such

sore legs. argh! when is this gonna stop?! ps; mr hanley, you can go suck a fat one ;D