we both want what we can't have. & i guess that's just th way it has to be whether we like it or not.

i need, i want, i need, i want; that's what's going  through my head. i need this & i want that. need to loose weight! needs money all th time, wants new clothes, wants a job, wants her license, wants you, needs to pass ncea. life is so difficult & fustrating atmo. argh! not getting what you want/need sucks.

th more i get, th more i want.

i can't handle this little act you have going on.. i can't leave you alone. & i got it so so baadddd. you're all i want. ♫

four months today babe. ♥

So yeah, life is great. ♥

why? bcos you f*cked up.

i don't think i could stay away, even if i tried..

i trust you, but then i just don't. it's easier said then done. just th past comes back to me, gets me thinking about silly stuff, & i get all paranoid over.. well nothing. you say you won't, but you or i don't know that for sure..

funny that one moment both of you were inseperable. and now, you're just two different people trying to forget eachother.

  I LOVE MY GIRLS. ♥ 

karmin's cover - look at me now; so amazing! wish a could rap like that aha, serious. so so cool maan. ;D

so yeah, i'm just a bit excited for tmro. (;

Cross out th stuff you've done/do/have.

1. Had sex
2. Bought condoms
3. Failed a class
4. Kissed a boy
5. Kissed a girl
6. Had a job
7. Had sex in public
8. Played on a sports team
9. Drank alcohol
10. Been overweight
11. Been underweight
12. Been to a wedding
13. Been late for work
14. Been late for school
15. Kissed someone in the rain
16. Showered with someone else
17. Failed my driver’s test
18. Been outside my home country
19. Been on a road trip longer than 5 hours
20. Gotten my heart broken
21. Gotten engaged
22. Been on a diet
23. Been to Prom
24. Played a drinking game
25. Stayed up for 24 hours or more
26. Had a threesome
27. Been in a car accident
28. Learned another language
29. Talked to someone via webcam
30. Lost my virginity before I was 16
31. Snuck out of the house
32. Bought porn
33. Had a virus on my computer
34. Gone skinny dipping
35. Worn someone else’s clothes
36. Been on an airplane
37. Been on a boat
38. Kissed someone before I was 14
39. Prank called someone
40. Been to a library outside of school
41. Spent over $100 shopping in one day
42. Peed outside
43. Taken a pregnancy test for fun
44. Rejected someone
45. Been suspended from school
46. Faked sick from school
47. Been drunk.
48. Touched a real gun.
49. Took “naughty” pictures of myself.
50. Got into a fist fight.
51. Listened to Lady Gaga.
52. Been allergic to something.
53. Been pregnant.
54. Had unprotected sex.
55. Camped out.
56. Wore a bikini.
57. Repeated a grade.
58. Went to summer school.
59. Read an entire book.
60. Have an xBox/Game console.
61. Play game console.
62. Bought skinny jeans.
63. Been in love.
64. Been cheated on.
65. Cheated on someone.
66. Had a cavity.
67. Had surgery.
68. Had sex in an 'unordinary' place.
69. Got separated from my parents as a kid.
70. Broken a bone.
71. Gotten stung by a bee.
72. Eaten something bad/expired.
73. Threw up from being so drunk.
74. Owned an iPod.
75. Fell for a best friend.
76. Went away from home for more than a week.
77. Moved out.
78. Ran away.
79. Teased a brother/sister.
80. Had food poisoning.
81. Lied to a friend.
82. Lied to a family member.
83. Deliberately failed a test.
84. Dropped out of school.
85. Gotten my “private parts” pierced.
86. Been skinny dipping.
87. Had fast food.
88. Been to church.
89. Been married.
90. Broken a window.
91. I’m loud.
92. I’m sarcastic.
93. I’m easy to get along with.
94. I wear foundation.
95. I change my hair color often.
96. I have a piercing.
97. I have small feet.
98. I’m in a relationship now.
99. I’m single
100. I’m always scared of being hurt.
101. I've been inlove.
102. I have a best friend.
103. I’ve been on a plane.
104. I’ve taken a taxi.
105. I’ve taken a bus.
106. I’ve taken a school bus.
107. I’ve made a speech.
108. I’ve won an award.
109. I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
110. I download music.
111. I get along with both of my parents.
112. I have at least one brother.
113. I have at least one sister.
114. I’ve been kicked out of the house.
115. I’ve cut my hair in the past year.

but like.. everyone makes mistakes, and everyone desreves second chances. & what she did was over  th top wrong. but she knows th consequences now, and hopefully she learns from her mistakes & doesn't do it again. just let her earn your trust back, i know it'll take some time & won't be easy, but it'll be worth it in th end. i know she'll never do it again. she knows what'll happen if she does it again, & i know it's th last thing she wants, is to loose you. i'm not asking you to trust her or anything too hard, just asking to give her another chance. 

 hates being second best, it hurts.. so much. 

it was a first, and i promise it's going to be a last. i'm disgusted in what happened, honestly.

i honestly cannot handle this. guess i deserve it huh?
yep, i sure as hell do.

we don't know what th future holds. but i promise you, i'll try & earn it back. & i'll make sure it won't happen. i'll prove you wrong babe. forever is all i'm askin. ♥

regrets - shouldn't have them but i regret what i  done. especially if it's going to ruin well  .. us.

so yeah, just gonna put it out there now.. lastnight just too too drunk! dunno what i was thinking. all th tears & shit.. just made a fool of myself, th stuff i've been hearing. wow; i'm a blimmin suk! i'm pretty disappointed in myself aswell as th boys are too. & i'm honestly really sorry. i was upset about a lot of things, & alcohol just made it worst. but everyone makes mistakes when they're drunk, & i hope this'll be th first & last, honestly. i am so overly embarrassed. wish i could take all of it back. just have to learn from my mistakes. again, so sorry.

one simple thing, but you can't even do that? you say you'll try show me you care, i'm still not seeing it? so hard to get through to you. i'm really getting fed up with this. i don't really know what to do anymore. to you it mayb be th tiniest thing, but to me, no. you should know what i'm like. i can't help it. i've told you so much times, obviously you don't seem to understand? i honestly don't believe you anymore. & i'm honestly fed up.. sorry; i just can't take it any longer :( -              but i'll always still love you          

just a tad excited for tonight. ;)

  i kinda miss you to..   

indigo, you're so amazaing! ;D i love you tonnes, & never ever wanna loose you. you're th best, one of my bestest friends i could ever ask for! hehe. always been there for me, and you know i'll always be there for you. through everything. i trust you with pree' much everything hehe :) & i'm glad you can tell me anything & everything too. i love you heaps babe. ♥

you are such a teaser. ;)

so yeah, might be starting up at th YMCA gym soon ;D WICKED!

so yeah, my life is amazin' atmo.

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we're so much better then that. just let them bitch & hate, don't  make them think it bothers us. just keep our heads held high. they're honestly nothing, & we shouldn't even care. i don't, don't let it bother you. lets just live our life th way we want & do what we want. don't worry about them, we honestly do not need bitchy girls in our life. they need to grow up! :) seriously over it, you should be too.

words can't even 

describe this feeling, honestly. ♥

 

i have a dirty little secret, but don't we all? ;)

honestly, such a good blimmin' weekend. haven't had that much fun in awhile to be honest ;p 4-days without any school, ahh so good! should be like that more often ahah. partyin & partyin, then chillin cos i've just been so tired hah, went & saw my amazing bestfriend lastnight, & stayed with her! sorry i haven't really been with you much this weekend, but seems like you had fun, so that's good :) pretty much been with th boys for th whoole weekend aha, & yh was quite fun! i'm kinda, actually looking forward to this weekend, gonna be so much fun. i betcha ;) wooh. it'll go so quick seeing as we're halfway through th week already. reaaally wanna go shopping! hmm, well i've been pretty good. but funs over, back to school, studying, filling out my application forms for these 2 jobs, study for my learners! really need to get it before th age goes up!! but this weekend, aahh; cant wait! ♥

              illegal sex in illegal places.             

ONLY YOU CAN GIVE ME THAT FEELING. ♥

sorry i'm not anything like her, or have known you as long as her or been friends with you as long as she has. but truth is, i'm not th one that gets all bitched up over one little thing you do/say. i honestly thought i was your number one. i thought i had someone. for a second there you had me. guess not, you even said so yourself.. i'm not gonna act like it bothers me even though it sure as hell does. i honestly wish you hadn't said that ;(

some space between me & you sounds like a good idea..

not much bloggin' been coming from me latley, tbh; not much time on my hands orr.. i just can't be f*cked haha. well it's th long weekend plusss tuesday off which is well.. pretty cool ;) been out th last two nights, much fun haha. haven't been out in so long, so yes was very good. i've been good, great  infact. i have th flu atmo ;( i was  looking forward to going out tonight.. but no, night in tonight i'm thinking. so tonight pretty much facebook, this, formspring.. my night sorted aha :)